Notes from our last meeting
What keeps me writing? Being part of material earth. More objective reality, less expectation – drop into what’s physical, report on that experience through imagined space.
How locality affects brain space in writing. Seaons, cycles of the pandemic; summer hard to create writing space in, wanting to be outside. Some seasons aren’t writing seasons.
Writing space is a cold time, chair by a window.
Needs: to get writing written — structure/external accountability or deadline. Go backwards from the deadline to make the structure. To be interested – sensory experience, ideas, philosophical questions.
The form of Lauren Berlant’s the hundreds. Approach: small intense zaps of writing. Attending to/listening to experiences, moments of intensity that could lead to writing.
Productivity gets in the way – allowing for some freedom – what makes sense for you personally?
The writer-me of today wants to work toward something longer, not just bursts. But there is an accumulation. Little things add up. Intensity in each one. Continue without worry. Just build.
Interaction of writing practice with other creative practices. Refreshing with other mediums. Getting unstuck – Dao’s presentation allowed another dimension of the writing beyond the writing.
Using experience of dancing – with other bodies, noticing the reciprocation between bodies. Cross-feeling: at other times, very separate. Resource: a synaesthesia of sorts, through body.
Pottery, painting, practices as child: other places where we are free, don’t bring expectations. Pressure of identity hard to sustain while dealing with words all the time. Painting has freed up Alli’s writing. A way to get back to writing. Try now to move forward with both practices together. Playing with erasure poems as visual writing. Thinking of words as a visual currency.
What moves you as a reader? Being pulled into the world, the logic. To see something in a different way. Themes that resonate through character. Clarity of voice. Being turned upside down by a voice, something gets posed in a new way. Lydia Davis’s book with fly on the cover – writing is all about the grammar. Made me think about language as voice, writing about writing.
Voice – thinking about mouths and eyes. Writing for mind’s ear vs writing for ears.
Ali Smith (fave of JS and KKS) language becomes a mind.
The drop in. Non connecting tissue. Even though as writer, a strong desire to connect the dots, moved by the leaps.
“And speaking of capitalism” read Tao every day. Turns everything over – turns question to you as a person to ask questions about what you [unintelligible scrawl here]
Renee Gladman, Prose Architectures & Calamities.
Billy-Ray Belcourt – History of My Brief Body; need to read slowly, in relation to day to day, vs. habit of blazing through books.
Questions we can leave for each other.
Dao: re: reading your own work: relation to voice questions: what’s your voice? Is there an internal north star? What’s the internal north star rather than the externally defined one?
Jillian: Curious about the capacity to remember. Fiction is becoming a way to remember where I was, better than a journal entry. Catching spirit of voice, doing it as quickly as I can so I can come back to it. Can I catch through fiction? Can fiction as a voice catch a memory that I experienced mentally?
Alli: What does it mean to write through something repeatedly? Often around events. To write the same thing from different angles.