Notes from second meetup

Notes from second meetup

Discussed: relationship metaphors for getting perspective on a revision process, revision as a navigated relationship between you and the thing you have written. 

Feeding forward the practice from couples therapy, of learning to listen to what the partner (other/manuscript) is saying instead of formulating response already while they’re talking. Manuscript isn’t exactly an other, but indulge the ways it is: a set of words you managed to get onto a page that, while guided by your intention, now exist independently outside of you. Might be filled with things you’re not aware of. How to listen for these appearances, substrata. 

Metaphor of the parent, whose kid, while guided and constrained by parent, reveals who they are, more and more every year. 

Could the other (the partner/kid proxy in this metaphor) be another center within your own writing mind? 

Attempted: diagnosing tensions or stopping places in the process of revision. Propose a way past/around via “what if” propositions. To find new angles of thinkings, to figure out how to switch gears, to move through the revision in a different tempo than the first draft took. 

Things that came up as we shared more about the projects we are revising: 

Writing a haunting/writing the stories of other people’s lives that have traversed your own // ethics, hesitations, who owns the story? What is owed to the people in/behind our stories? Writing to do right by an event/the people in the event. 

Giving attention on its own to a piece that was originally written within a group of pieces. Meeting something in the present that comes from a different time of one’s life. Curiosity about how to meet it, work it. 

Reading for pleasure, discovering things that weren’t focus of attention in the first drafting process. 

Revising toward an idea of growing the pages. Spending more time with the pages. 

Finishing pieces long imagined as elements of a multi-part sequence. What to do when the formal ambition for that multi-part thing has changed. The fact/value of letting things sit for a while. The feeling that something isn’t done as an agitation that takes you back to it. 

Revising with a goal toward gathering. Finding the series/the set from within many short pieces. Space to add more. Openness to asking whether something is or isn’t part of the collection. Series idea feels generative: what kind of steam can I get out of this organizing idea?

The realization that the tools of one form (performance) may not be needed in the draft at hand (a fiction). When to raid one’s compositional knowledge from across contexts/disciplines, when to let it go and recognize what this context, this discipline is. 

More relationships: angry coach. Don’t let angry coach lead your revision process. 

Alternative: hockey goalie: in front of the net, fielding the puck, a sense of control.

Draft as a new friend I’m not sure I really want to be friends but I’ve committed to at least spend some time together. A feeling of permission to spend time mucking around. Not needing anything more than to make it more satisfying. 

Relationship between who I was when I wrote the draft and who I am now, esp if there has been a long stretch of time between. Even if I feel the same, what does it feel like to write with the energy of the present. 

What is the same, what has shifted for you? Being compassionate about what the past-writer-you was responding to.

Who was in the room? Who’s in the room now? (As in, the voices in your head. Can you invite or disinvite? Who is the patron saint of this process?)

What do I see in myself from that time that I want to return to? What wd be beneficial to recuperate? What wd be denying reality? 

Relationship to text before it’s been shown to audience, feels illicit. 

Recognition of other voices. Voice of the dead. How faithful am I here to those who inspired this writing? How to be in the room with so many voices. 

Re parenthood metaphor. Worst parent is terrified of what other people will think of their child. Not focusing on worst moment/failures. 

Revisitation as revision. Revision as revisitation (haunting). 

Permission to have a new perspective on your own writing. 

What if the place of revision is a refuge. Taking refuge in the revision instead of fear of the end goal. 

What is a safe place to revise from? 

Architecture of a Day (Notes on Practice)

One of the things I do with my time is facilitate writing groups, both short and ongoing seasons of writing in the presence of others through a series of cycles, which may be locally defined as writing weeks, or writing fortnights, or other durations. Usually I begin our meetings by asking each writer to report on how their practice of writing went in the last cycle. It’s seductive to meet this request for a report by reporting on the interval between what one wanted to do and what one did. I wanted to write daily but on I only wrote once, and so on. I wanted to develop this other project but instead I transcribed fragments from my notebooks. 

Maybe there is something in this metric of lack that has some use? Maybe it allows us to sidestep the question, what is this writing that I actually wrote, labels the writing as not our real writing, something less than our real writing, where “real” takes on the old romantic connotation of a glorious capital-R Real that somehow exceeds the illusory, fragmented confusion of the actual world we find ourselves in. But I am interested in perceiving the being of the writing that has actually been written, which includes a perception of its futurities, its potentialities, its realities, perhaps, but attends most closely to what it is now. 

If a writer reports on the gap between plan and actuality as a form of lack or failure, I ask them to reframe the gap. The writing that happened: how did it happen? What were you doing when you wrote? In distinction to what you thought you needed to do to get yourself writing, what did you find out you actually need? How does the perceived failure to follow the plan teach you something about the expansive conditions in which writing can get written? The interval between what we project and what we find ourselves doing can be playful, can be a conversation, rather than just a source of disappointment. 

The question comes up again and again, what actually constitutes “the writing”? 

The other question is: Could we play with different understandings of the architecture of a day, a week, or a month, and the way that writing or making or just being with that free creative impulse might live within that rhythm. What containers create enough containment that we feel back inside their flow when we return to them? 

Some containers are marked by time. In one group, a writer shared her practice of folding her writing day into the way the light changed. On days she wrote, she would begin in late afternoon, in daylight, without any lamps or lights on, and continue writing through dusk as her room slowly darkened. In another group, a writer chose the same window but at the other pole of the day, rising in the dark and writing until the day was full day. In another group, another writer wrote late at night before bed, freely making a mess, then re-read her night pages first thing in the morning, making morning notes toward bringing them into some kind of order. All of these practices embedded themselves in the rhythms of the day and night. They might have been productive of something, but they were also, like toothbrushing, like eating, like waking and sleeping, something that belonged to the day and not only to the writing’s future as something that might circulate among others. 

In other groups, with other writers, different containers were found. Letting go of the ideal of dailiness, something else functions as a sustaining rhythm. Often these containers are documents combined with particular and limited tasks. One writer who is always with her phone, not only because we’re all always with our phones, it seems, but because her obligations take her away from her desk for most of her time, keeps an open note in the notes app, and adds to it whenever a small thought crystallizes in mind, and later, maybe only once in a writing cycle, carries these collected entries to her desk and transfers them to new pages, allowing herself to write into them, to reform them, to cull them, in the transfer process. Another writer kept an open document in which she collected words and images that appealed to her. Then once a week, as determined by the obligation to share pages, she looked through that collected pile of appealing things and wrote with or from it, leaving the pile at the end of the document like a combination pantry-compost. Something I am writing these days is held by its document and by a simple task. I open it up on a whim whenever I think of it, no more than once a day and often not for weeks at a time, and I add a single paragraph, either doing a fill-in-the-blanks game that amuses me and repeats as a grounding pulse throughout the ever-growing document, or picking up another thread that also carries through the pages. The limitation of the single paragraph is a pleasure for me, an inveterate spewer and piler-up of raw source material. Instead of going on and on, I fold as much pleasure-treasure into my paragraph as my whim that day holds and the paragraph can take. Then I close the document and forget about it. 

If the desire is to create writing that is alive, rather than writing that is good (thanks to Agnes Borinsky for reminding me recently of this way of renaming and so enlarging and enlivening the desire that attends the relationship we each have to our own writing), could we think of aliveness as something that is in cooperation with and maybe nourishing to our own aliveness. What does that mean for how writing occurs and is invited in the architecture of a day or week or year? Within what time cycle do we track its living energy? What numerical freedoms and mysteries are at play in its pattern of occurrence? What would its scene of communication be?